Wednesday, 15 April 2009

Middle of the week blues

I have had a couple of bad days and felt pretty fed up. 
Yesterday, I woke up and ended up coming down stairs to the lounge. I pottered about doing a few things but I could feel that I wasn't right. I was suffering badly with fatigue and that was bringing me down. I was also in a fair bit of pain, which was just frustrating. I spent the day curled up the sofa sleeping on and off for most of the day.
This morning, I got up and had to get ready for work. I still didn't feel great but thought I would give work a try and see how I got on. I managed to do three hours only finishing half an hour early. I was quite pleased about that and I felt that the shift had gone well. 
I picked up a little bit this afternoon. My Dad came up and helped me sort out a couple of my pots that were full of weeds in my front garden. We were also talking about the holiday and that always puts a smile on my face.
I am just annoyed at myself for getting so down. It's not good for me and it's not fair on Martin. He is the one who gets the brunt of my misery and I feel so guilty about that. It's not like I don't know that there are going to be days where I am going to struggle, and if I'm honest, those are more frequent than I would like. My point is that I feel as though I shouldn't be getting down about it because I know it is going to happen. It's a vicious circle! I'm sure I will snap out of it soon - or at least I hope so!!
Martin is involved in a production of Hello Dolly at the Northcott Theatre in Exeter next week. There was a piece done about it on our local news and Martin can be seen and heard singing on there!! I was so proud of him. If you want to see it, here is the link!! 
We went for a lovely walk on Easter Sunday. Well I didn't walk, I used my mobility scooter!! It was a beautiful day and we took some lovely pictures up at Exeter canal. So I thought I would include a few on here for you all to see.
Beautiful eh?!!


  1. lovely pics amelia.thank god we can still appreciate mort xxx

  2. Thank you for sharing those beautiful pictures with us. I too have been trying to work as much as I can but the fatigue and muscle spasms dont let me last long. so I guess I have to revert back to being proud of myself for whatever I accomplish that day. Take care!!

  3. Hi Amelia,
    Beautiful photos thanks for posting.
    Devon is one of my favourite counties.
    Used to visit friends years ago in Wesrwrad Ho and Bideford and Exmouth.

    Take care.