Friday, 3 April 2009
Tired, Tired, Tired!
I woke up this morning, early 6.30am. I got up and pottered about because I didn't want to just lie in bed. But by 8.30am I was exhausted again. So I went back to bed.
I got up again at about 11.30am BUT I could have stayed in bed all day. Fatigue has really hit hard today. It's amazing how it hits and just how incapable of doing anything, I feel. It has stayed with me all day.
I say I got up but all I did was transfer myself from my bedroom to my sofa, where I promptly fell asleep again this afternoon.
My body is experiencing withdrawal symptoms from the steroids too. I have a really bad achy pain along the top of my back and shoulders. It feels as though I have done ten rounds in a boxing ring. Not at all pleasant.
The numbness feels quite prominent again today, which is disappointing. My right hand is struggling and the numbness up in my head is frustrating. Is this just because I feel so tired?
I had a call from work today and I have agreed to return on Monday. Am I doing the right thing? At this moment I am not sure, but I do want to go back and to be fair they have been very patient with me, so I don't want to take advantage of that. I guess I will just see how I feel over the weekend and if I don't think I can manage on Monday I will have to say so!
I have no plans over the weekend, which is how I wanted it. I just need to take it easy and keep resting. It's hard because I had the last infusion on Wednesday so in my mind I should be feeling better by now. And although I still need to rest, my head is starting to question whether I am just being lazy. Does any of this make sense??