Sunday, 8 March 2009
I thought Friday was a bad day............
....................but yesterday and today have been even worse.
My pain, is being a real pain.
I went into work yesterday and it was tough going. But I managed almost my whole shift. My hands were so painful though, and by the end of it, I have to admit, I was in tears. I was a little frustrated because I think the managers thought that I was upset at not being able to complete my work but that wasn't the issue at all. The reason I was upset, was that I was in so much pain. But when you have pain that people can't see and is very difficult to describe, then it is hard to get across the fact that it is causing such a problem.
I woke up this morning and the feeling in my feet was particularly unpleasant. It was a kind of burning pain, combined with the numb, tingly, pins and needles sensation. I can tell you that it makes walking very tricky. And very uncomfortable. It makes no sense to me. How can my feet and hands be so painful and yet have this numb sensation? But that is MS for you.
My right hand is feeling horrible today. The fingers are very numb and tingly, but with pain. In my left hand I get specific pain, in my wedding ring finger. It is like a shooting pain, that works it's way right through the finger.
These feelings in my hands used to be intermittent. My right hand pain wasn't too bad and my left hand pain would come and go. Now though, my left hand pain comes nearly everyday and my right hand is pretty persistent.
But tomorrow is another day and I am hopeful that I will get a good nights sleep, that will set me up for a good week. Things are going to start getting busy over the next few weeks with singing gigs. I am excited, scared and looking forward to it..............I think?!! My idea is that being busy will take my mind off the pain. And you never know, I might get my pain clinic appointment.
I'll keep you posted!