Wednesday 4 March 2009

Tired, cold and emotional, but Oh so grateful for the Internet!

OK, so I am not a happy bunny tonight! 
I am so tired, I am freezing cold and I think because of the previous two things I am emotional too!
I have been to work today. I have had some of my shifts changed. I am still doing the same four days, but on Wednesdays & Fridays the hours have changed. Overall I am happy with the new hours. It means I don't work so late on a Friday which was becoming a big issue and on a Wednesday I work earlier in the day so the shift is over. That is fine except the Wednesday shift is now three and a half hours instead of three. I know it doesn't sound much but that extra half an hour really takes it out of me. I am going to stick with it for a couple of weeks and see how I get on but I may have to cut it down again. I want to at least say that I have tried doing it though, instead of giving up straight away. 
Being a Wednesday today, I have done the first of my new shifts. It went OK and I stuck it out, but I am totally shattered now. I don't just mean I need a bit of sleep kind of tired. I mean that my body is aching, my eyes are heavy and my legs are like lead. I am really hoping for a good night's sleep tonight. Fortunately I have nothing planned for tomorrow, so it is one of my much looked forward to days off!!
So having had a whinge, I want to say how glad I am that we have the Internet at out finger tips. I am overwhelmed at the friendships I have formed in the last 18 months. 
Firstly with Face book, which is great to connect with old friends but also great for making new ones. I then came across Twitter, which has introduced new people to me. Then I decided to start this blog, which has opened up doors to more new friendships. Obviously all the friends I have made are important to me, but I am especially grateful to those of you who are sharing your MS lives with me and countless others. To be able to "Talk" to other people who are going through the same things, is something that is difficult to describe. 
I joined my local branch of the MS Society - The South Devon Branch - and I must say hello to all the members!! I became a member soon after I was diagnosed and they have been a great support throughout. But it is also really enjoyable, "talking" to so many of you out there. Not only all over the UK, but various parts of the world too. 
I am so glad that I started doing this blog, because, selfishly, I am finding it so therapeutic. To be able to write down what I am going through AND to get responses back, that mean I am not going mad & it's not all in my head, is great!
I want to thank each and everyone of you for just being out there. Knowing that there is always someone available to talk through the strange events of this disease is invaluable.
I told you I was feeling emotional tonight!!
XxXxX

2 comments:

  1. WTG Girl, I agree wholeheartedly about the internet. It has opened up new worlds and friendships for me too. It enables me to meet others with MS, Diabetes,other Nurses and even long lost relatives through my Family History research. I'd love to do AmDram or similar but am in bed by 8pm most nights (and not usually up until 10.30am) although I don't normally get to sleep until about 1am with the days events and worries going around in my head like a washing machine. Don't know how you do so much. I still hope to get a job over here on the Island maybe 10 hours over 3 afternoons, or perhaps in the MS shop. Make sure you get all the benefits you're entitled to, I'm sure you have. Don't forget DLA isn't means tested and also check Warm Front for grants for insulating your home etc. Let me know if you need more advice.
    Love Jen xx

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  2. Amelia,

    I enjoy blogging very much as well. The writing can be therapeutic and connecting with others is priceless. I see that you've made acquaintances with many of my bloggery friends.

    I"m glad that you've made yourself at home. The change in shift sounds very helpful and I hope that you are able to benefit.

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